Just try and stop me. It’s not going to work.
I am a new woman.
I have changed things in my life just by learning how to love myself again. A year ago I posted about going on a fitness journey. BWAHAHAHAHA!!! Looking back, I can’t believe I did that. Technically, I am sort of on a fitness journey, but it isn’t about fitness. Do I use fitness a lot? Yes, of course. But it’s not about “loosing weight” or “dieting”. God took me in a completely different direction. I am having to learn to love and respect myself and figure out who I want to be and what makes me happy. Yes, I love myself enough to workout on a regular bases. Yes, I have a Fitbit and track practically every thing that I do. But I remembered how much I love competition. So I decided to use that to help improve my energy levels so I can play with my kids without being winded so easily. Then I began having so much fun with the things that I have been doing that I just kept doing them because I loved it and loved how it made me feel. And surprisingly it has helped tremendously with the frustration and anger that just sat in the pit of my stomach. Don’t get me wrong, The Hulk is still there laying in wait, but I have learned how to tame the beast a little better than before.
This has not been a fast process. Not at all. I wrote that blog in March of 2018, and it took me until October to even go to a Zumba class, and until January to really understand what I was suppose to be doing. But in March of 2018, I was 193 lbs. And today I can proudly say that I am 180 lbs. It is not a lot lost and I have a long way to go, BUT I am thankful for how far I’ve come and that now I don’t want to stop.
BTW: I ran a mile in 10 min and 32 seconds! I am really focusing on building my endurance so my heart doesn’t have to work so hard.